battling depression

I've been to Colorado before too. It is absol...

2011-08-09T06:30:52.292-05:00

I've been to Colorado before too. It is absolutely beautiful ! I love the mountains.

I'm glad you had a good time in Kansas also...although I'm not so sure about the fishing part :) My husband fishes , I watch.

Karly

I struggle with depression too. And I just want ...

2011-08-08T06:04:32.592-05:00

I struggle with depression too. And I just want to tell you I understand. That doesn't mean that I want you to die, . . .but I definately understand the "why" behind it. Those who don't have this kind of pain don't get it. I do.

In some strange way your words have brought comfort to me , because someone else understand what is going on in my head too.

I just want to let you know you are not alone, . . I DO get this, I DO undersatnd . . I will be here "sitting" with you as long as you post, or as long as you want ( I check often and have read them all ). and I get it .

Karly

I'm praying for you. I don't have the righ...

2011-07-27T14:36:32.431-05:00

I'm praying for you. I don't have the right words, maybe, but it always pays to hear it again: You're not alone. You're worth living, and loving. I'd bet hard money your husband agrees. Talk to someone, anyone, to start. Talk to a priest. The truth from a religious point of view may be a lot easier, a lot more hopeful, to hear than you think. Offer your suffering up in tandem with our Jesus's suffering on the cross, for your family or friends or for others who suffer. It will give even your bad days dignity and hope. You are loved and encouraged.

~Josh~

Please know that you are not alone. I care about y...

2011-06-27T23:07:28.027-05:00

Please know that you are not alone. I care about you and am praying for you. Your husband would be so sad without you. It would hurt him so much. Please know that there are people out there who really care about you. They may not know how to express it, or how much pain you are in, but they do care. Don't be afraid of being judged - there's absolutely nothing wrong with getting help. Especially if it prevents the worst.

Please feel free to email me day or night. I am here for you, if you need someone to talk to:
AngelOfTheMorning2011@gmail.com

-Nicole

I admire your consideration. You're willing to...

2011-02-01T14:55:38.542-06:00

I admire your consideration. You're willing to sacrifice yourself to better the lives of the people you love, financially.

I've read some of your posts, and all I hear is how much your life sucks and how much better you'd feel dead. I know the feeling, but I realized how selfish it was. Do you realize how much grief your family is going to go through if you kill yourself? That's something no one can get over. I know. Yeah, you'd be giving your husband money he needs, but it's blood money. I can't imagine him using that money and not feeling guilty that you had to kill yourself for him to use it. I couldn't take that money.

Three of my best friends are suicidal right now. It wouldn't just kill them if they succeeded in their plans, it would kill me. How could I live with myself that I couldn't be there for them, and that these people I love are gone by their own hands? It would haunt me for the rest of my life. I cry now just thinking about it.

Life is hard and it sucks. It may never get better--you're right about that. But all I ask is that you stop and think about the people who will be affected by your death and the trauma they'll face. Think about someone besides yourself.

I used to prefer being alone because there was no one looking over my shoulder, but I just got more and more depressed. Once I started living for others, I got better. It helps pull you out--but it doesn't fix anything. Eventually you have to live for yourself again, but that boost can make the difference. Helping others gives you a feeling of purpose. You may not get the recognition you want, but it's more than you're getting alone. Plus, if you live for others, it's harder to imagine killing yourself. People are counting on you.

If you ever want someone to talk to, I'd love to listen. I know you're a stranger to me, but I hear what you're saying and I care that you make it through this. If you do end up committing suicide, it should at least be for the right reasons.

Your last paragraph was like it was written straig...

2010-12-23T07:19:43.782-06:00

Your last paragraph was like it was written straight out of my head. Thank you for putting into words what I haven't been able to. For the record, I don't think you're crazy... because if you are, then I am, too ;)

Yep, your story sounds about right for the TN gove...

2010-11-16T22:41:00.189-06:00

Yep, your story sounds about right for the TN government. I am truly sorry that your mom got jilted. I'm pretty sure she's been labeled as the Tattle Tale of Tennessee and that is so sad. It used to be a good quality to have. Someone that wants to do the right thing. But now days you have to be a drug dealing mayor, or better yet a pimping teacher or just down right low down to get promoted & get ahead in the system.

I hope your mom finds something much better.